Those words, his name on Haibara's lips, Nanami groans. He can already feel taking his time slipping away from him, despite the fact they already had sex in the kitchen when Haibara came home and jerked each other off in the shower afterward. It's a reminder he's still in his twenties too, even if they aren't teenagers.
"Tell me," Nanami says, "if it ever is too much. I need you to tell me. Too anything." Because his own desires don't matter more than Haibara, when he would be happy with anything, so long as Haibara is here. He meets Haibara's kiss and pushes his lips apart to take his mouth. His hips rock so he pushes into Haibara's hand. His hands run along Haibara's back, his sides, his thighs. They run everywhere.
"You'll never be too much, Kento." He breathes the words, fingers just stroking along the side of Nanami's shaft as his hips rock. "I love you, all of you and I want all of you, the good and the bad." Not that he's seen anything bad, at least not enough to qualify in his eyes.
If anything, he'd always wondered if he'd been too much when they were younger, the way he behaved and the way Nanami reacted, but behind closed doors, it was different. Had always been different and- Haibara shivers, losing his train of thought when Nanami's hands moved over his skin.
"..Kento." He whispers it this time, leans in to kiss him again that kiss ends.
Those words are incredible. Those words are terrifying. Nanami doesn't know what he's doing, but he reached under the shirt of his Haibara wears to feel the curve of his ass beneath his hands. Soft skin. Everything. It's everything.
"Yu," Nanami moans, whispers, worships. "I want you so badly."
He pulls back slightly from the kiss. "And I want you to eat your dinner."
"The food will be there." Because Nanami's hands on him ass are definitely taking more of his focus at the moment and he leans in, presses an open mouth kiss to Nanami's neck.
"I know, but..." Nanami squeezes Haibara's ass tight as he tries to focus. He ate. Haibara should eat. They could fall into this all night. Nanami could make love to him all night. He groans as Haibara kisses his neck. Soft and electric.
His feet widen their stance to steady him as he slides one hand to find where he stored lube in the living room. Knew to be prepared.
"I promise I'll eat." His lips trail lower, Haibara biting his neck gently at the base before he sucks a mark there, well hidden under the collar of Nanami's shirt. He knows it's not fair, knows he should respect that Nanami is trying to look out for him, but they're both adults and he can feel exactly how much Nanami wants him.
Tries to hold back but neither of them need that. Not here and not now. "Kento." He tries it out, licks along his neck up to his jaw before he's kissing Nanami again, licking into his mouth.
"As soon as we finish," Nanami insists. A last vestige of firmness in the face of Haibara in his lap. That would be enough. That alone would be enough, but he wears Nanami's shirt, and he finds that sensitive spot. Nanami moans, low and deep. His hands grip Haibara hard as he loses a bit of his attention for a couple moments as Haibara says his name.
He kisses Haibara back with all he's feeling, dinner abandoned for the time being, slow and needy. He opens up for Haibara and cannot get enough of him. A hand runs up Haibara's back under Nanami's shirt, and even the feel of his skin excites him.
Nanami could sigh from that yes, the yes that agrees from want and hunger. Yet he cannot blame Haibara when he feels the same way. He runs his fingers back down Haibara's back. His other hand pulls Haibara closer to him in his lap, so that they rub against each other. Nanami rocks up against Haibara.
"Your skin, I could worship your skin," Nanami manages. He lets himself run wide flat hands down Haibara's thighs.
Even feed you dinner? Nanami almost jokes, but his hands come around to unbutton his shirt Haibara's wearing, so he can run his hands along Haibara's chest. He's careful, though, not to damage the buttons or pull them off. It's a good shirt. It only adds to the moment the shirt is open enough he lays his whole hands on Haibara, thumbs rubbing across his collar bones.
"I know. I feel it. I feel it from both of us," Nanami says as he meets Haibara, hips rocking together. He feels it everywhere, never able to release it completely.
" I can feel how much you want and hold back " And it just intensifies his
own craving to touch and be touched. Those years watching had been more
difficult than he'd ever be able to put into words.
"We could never leave the apartment and I'd be content as long as we can
touch each other."
Nanami leans his forehead against Haibara's, eyes closed. He always wants Haibara, every moment of every day. It's been more than ten years for him, and he's never moved on, never wanted anyone else like that. He's wanted a long time, and he doesn't know if another decade could sate it.
"I could kiss you all day and all night. I could stay in this apartment for ages and ages, forgetting all else, and still I would want more," Nanami says. He sighs. "As much as I want that, as I want you, that's not all I want. That's why we need to leave the apartment. That's why there's other people in our lives, but I will always want you, Yu. Always."
"I know you have other things to occupy your time and I'm okay with that.
But it doesn't mean the way I crave your touch will lessen. When we're
alone, I'll probably be doing whatever I can to get yours hands on me, you
kissing me, holding me down and showing me exactly how much you want me. I
need to feel that, Kento.
But I can control myself in public." To some degree. "I feel your need and
it makes me want to respond, to give you everything." His hands come up,
frame Nanami's face as he kisses him, lets it linger.
"But even in public, I want to touch you, hold your hand, kiss you whenever
I can."
His breath hitches, catching in his throat, as Haibara talks about what he'll do. What he's already doing. What he needs. It speaks to those years alone, years where Nanami missed him more than anything but rarely spoke of it aloud, rarely demonstrated how much he wanted Haibara back because it hurt so much. It hurt too much. Did he not know? Did he not feel it?
Nanami wraps his arms around Haibara and turns so he can lay Haibara flat on his back on the couch with Nanami above him. He kisses Haibara and unbuttons the shirt the rest of the way. His hips pin Haibara's, and Nanami barely holds himself up on his elbows now the shirt's not in his way. "I will show you," he promises, "I will show you ever day how deeply I want you. I'm not used to feeling it this much, to wanting to needing someone this much. It's thrown off my whole routine. Everything I"m used to, and I'm glad," much as he is someone who lives by routine, "I am so glad you're here."
Tears form in his eyes, and Nanami kisses Haibara again, the love he feels and his personal discomfort with showing affection in public warring within him, "You can always hold my hand. Whenever we're out together." He doesn't know about the rest. It makes him flush, even here, to think about it.
The problem is he feels it too much, and the feelings shift into arousal
and desire, leaving him aching and craving contact. aching to be in
Nanami's arms, pinned under him and begging for Nanami to be inside him.
"I love you. I feel the same way and- " he shudders, arches up against
Nanami and moans his name, wrapping legs around his waist. " Kento,
please"
It hasn't been that long since Nanami took Haibara in the kitchen. He groans and breathes hard against Haibara's neck. The use of his name that way, it isn't fair. He feels around for the lube, slathers himself in it, and guides himself into Yu.
He takes Yu's hand and kisses it, a gesture of his love and affection. "I'm here, Yu. I'm here."
He's panting softly, lifting his hips as Nanami rocks into him, his free hand sliding over one of Nanami's shoulders, breath catching in his throat at the kiss to his hand.
"...Kento." It's a quiet whisper, a moan following as a wave of pleasure rides along their bond, letting Nanami feel how good Haibara feels when they're joined like this.
Through the bond, through touch, Nanami tries to ground Yu, to make him feel real and seen and felt and connected. That is more important than how good it feels when their bodies press against each other, how Yu's skin feels under his lips... More than his own pleasure, he wants Yu to feel loved and safe.
"You're with me, Yu," Nanami says, "I have you. I'll always have you."
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Date: 2024-01-28 08:00 am (UTC)"Tell me," Nanami says, "if it ever is too much. I need you to tell me. Too anything." Because his own desires don't matter more than Haibara, when he would be happy with anything, so long as Haibara is here. He meets Haibara's kiss and pushes his lips apart to take his mouth. His hips rock so he pushes into Haibara's hand. His hands run along Haibara's back, his sides, his thighs. They run everywhere.
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Date: 2024-01-31 04:52 am (UTC)If anything, he'd always wondered if he'd been too much when they were younger, the way he behaved and the way Nanami reacted, but behind closed doors, it was different. Had always been different and- Haibara shivers, losing his train of thought when Nanami's hands moved over his skin.
"..Kento." He whispers it this time, leans in to kiss him again that kiss ends.
"I'll never get enough of you."
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Date: 2024-01-31 05:02 am (UTC)"Yu," Nanami moans, whispers, worships. "I want you so badly."
He pulls back slightly from the kiss. "And I want you to eat your dinner."
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Date: 2024-01-31 05:09 am (UTC)"I can reheat if I need to."
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Date: 2024-01-31 12:35 pm (UTC)His feet widen their stance to steady him as he slides one hand to find where he stored lube in the living room. Knew to be prepared.
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Date: 2024-01-31 01:59 pm (UTC)Tries to hold back but neither of them need that. Not here and not now. "Kento." He tries it out, licks along his neck up to his jaw before he's kissing Nanami again, licking into his mouth.
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Date: 2024-02-01 12:29 am (UTC)He kisses Haibara back with all he's feeling, dinner abandoned for the time being, slow and needy. He opens up for Haibara and cannot get enough of him. A hand runs up Haibara's back under Nanami's shirt, and even the feel of his skin excites him.
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Date: 2024-02-01 12:38 am (UTC)"Yes." Anything to get Nanami's focus back where he wants it, that kiss turning into more as he shifts his hips restlessly in Nanami's lap.
"I love how your hands feel on my skin." Haibara breathes between kisses.
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Date: 2024-02-01 04:18 am (UTC)"Your skin, I could worship your skin," Nanami manages. He lets himself run wide flat hands down Haibara's thighs.
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Date: 2024-02-01 04:23 am (UTC)"I can't help wanting more every time you have hands on me."
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Date: 2024-02-01 07:37 pm (UTC)"I know. I feel it. I feel it from both of us," Nanami says as he meets Haibara, hips rocking together. He feels it everywhere, never able to release it completely.
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Date: 2024-02-01 07:57 pm (UTC)" I can feel how much you want and hold back " And it just intensifies his own craving to touch and be touched. Those years watching had been more difficult than he'd ever be able to put into words.
"We could never leave the apartment and I'd be content as long as we can touch each other."
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Date: 2024-02-01 08:44 pm (UTC)"I could kiss you all day and all night. I could stay in this apartment for ages and ages, forgetting all else, and still I would want more," Nanami says. He sighs. "As much as I want that, as I want you, that's not all I want. That's why we need to leave the apartment. That's why there's other people in our lives, but I will always want you, Yu. Always."
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Date: 2024-02-01 08:57 pm (UTC)"I know you have other things to occupy your time and I'm okay with that. But it doesn't mean the way I crave your touch will lessen. When we're alone, I'll probably be doing whatever I can to get yours hands on me, you kissing me, holding me down and showing me exactly how much you want me. I need to feel that, Kento.
But I can control myself in public." To some degree. "I feel your need and it makes me want to respond, to give you everything." His hands come up, frame Nanami's face as he kisses him, lets it linger.
"But even in public, I want to touch you, hold your hand, kiss you whenever I can."
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Date: 2024-02-01 10:09 pm (UTC)Nanami wraps his arms around Haibara and turns so he can lay Haibara flat on his back on the couch with Nanami above him. He kisses Haibara and unbuttons the shirt the rest of the way. His hips pin Haibara's, and Nanami barely holds himself up on his elbows now the shirt's not in his way. "I will show you," he promises, "I will show you ever day how deeply I want you. I'm not used to feeling it this much, to wanting to needing someone this much. It's thrown off my whole routine. Everything I"m used to, and I'm glad," much as he is someone who lives by routine, "I am so glad you're here."
Tears form in his eyes, and Nanami kisses Haibara again, the love he feels and his personal discomfort with showing affection in public warring within him, "You can always hold my hand. Whenever we're out together." He doesn't know about the rest. It makes him flush, even here, to think about it.
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Date: 2024-02-01 10:57 pm (UTC)The problem is he feels it too much, and the feelings shift into arousal and desire, leaving him aching and craving contact. aching to be in Nanami's arms, pinned under him and begging for Nanami to be inside him.
"I love you. I feel the same way and- " he shudders, arches up against Nanami and moans his name, wrapping legs around his waist. " Kento, please"
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Date: 2024-02-02 01:35 am (UTC)He takes Yu's hand and kisses it, a gesture of his love and affection. "I'm here, Yu. I'm here."
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Date: 2024-02-02 01:42 am (UTC)"...Kento." It's a quiet whisper, a moan following as a wave of pleasure rides along their bond, letting Nanami feel how good Haibara feels when they're joined like this.
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Date: 2024-02-02 03:15 am (UTC)"You're with me, Yu," Nanami says, "I have you. I'll always have you."