" I can feel how much you want and hold back " And it just intensifies his
own craving to touch and be touched. Those years watching had been more
difficult than he'd ever be able to put into words.
"We could never leave the apartment and I'd be content as long as we can
touch each other."
Nanami leans his forehead against Haibara's, eyes closed. He always wants Haibara, every moment of every day. It's been more than ten years for him, and he's never moved on, never wanted anyone else like that. He's wanted a long time, and he doesn't know if another decade could sate it.
"I could kiss you all day and all night. I could stay in this apartment for ages and ages, forgetting all else, and still I would want more," Nanami says. He sighs. "As much as I want that, as I want you, that's not all I want. That's why we need to leave the apartment. That's why there's other people in our lives, but I will always want you, Yu. Always."
"I know you have other things to occupy your time and I'm okay with that.
But it doesn't mean the way I crave your touch will lessen. When we're
alone, I'll probably be doing whatever I can to get yours hands on me, you
kissing me, holding me down and showing me exactly how much you want me. I
need to feel that, Kento.
But I can control myself in public." To some degree. "I feel your need and
it makes me want to respond, to give you everything." His hands come up,
frame Nanami's face as he kisses him, lets it linger.
"But even in public, I want to touch you, hold your hand, kiss you whenever
I can."
His breath hitches, catching in his throat, as Haibara talks about what he'll do. What he's already doing. What he needs. It speaks to those years alone, years where Nanami missed him more than anything but rarely spoke of it aloud, rarely demonstrated how much he wanted Haibara back because it hurt so much. It hurt too much. Did he not know? Did he not feel it?
Nanami wraps his arms around Haibara and turns so he can lay Haibara flat on his back on the couch with Nanami above him. He kisses Haibara and unbuttons the shirt the rest of the way. His hips pin Haibara's, and Nanami barely holds himself up on his elbows now the shirt's not in his way. "I will show you," he promises, "I will show you ever day how deeply I want you. I'm not used to feeling it this much, to wanting to needing someone this much. It's thrown off my whole routine. Everything I"m used to, and I'm glad," much as he is someone who lives by routine, "I am so glad you're here."
Tears form in his eyes, and Nanami kisses Haibara again, the love he feels and his personal discomfort with showing affection in public warring within him, "You can always hold my hand. Whenever we're out together." He doesn't know about the rest. It makes him flush, even here, to think about it.
The problem is he feels it too much, and the feelings shift into arousal
and desire, leaving him aching and craving contact. aching to be in
Nanami's arms, pinned under him and begging for Nanami to be inside him.
"I love you. I feel the same way and- " he shudders, arches up against
Nanami and moans his name, wrapping legs around his waist. " Kento,
please"
It hasn't been that long since Nanami took Haibara in the kitchen. He groans and breathes hard against Haibara's neck. The use of his name that way, it isn't fair. He feels around for the lube, slathers himself in it, and guides himself into Yu.
He takes Yu's hand and kisses it, a gesture of his love and affection. "I'm here, Yu. I'm here."
He's panting softly, lifting his hips as Nanami rocks into him, his free hand sliding over one of Nanami's shoulders, breath catching in his throat at the kiss to his hand.
"...Kento." It's a quiet whisper, a moan following as a wave of pleasure rides along their bond, letting Nanami feel how good Haibara feels when they're joined like this.
Through the bond, through touch, Nanami tries to ground Yu, to make him feel real and seen and felt and connected. That is more important than how good it feels when their bodies press against each other, how Yu's skin feels under his lips... More than his own pleasure, he wants Yu to feel loved and safe.
"You're with me, Yu," Nanami says, "I have you. I'll always have you."
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Date: 2024-02-01 07:57 pm (UTC)" I can feel how much you want and hold back " And it just intensifies his own craving to touch and be touched. Those years watching had been more difficult than he'd ever be able to put into words.
"We could never leave the apartment and I'd be content as long as we can touch each other."
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Date: 2024-02-01 08:44 pm (UTC)"I could kiss you all day and all night. I could stay in this apartment for ages and ages, forgetting all else, and still I would want more," Nanami says. He sighs. "As much as I want that, as I want you, that's not all I want. That's why we need to leave the apartment. That's why there's other people in our lives, but I will always want you, Yu. Always."
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Date: 2024-02-01 08:57 pm (UTC)"I know you have other things to occupy your time and I'm okay with that. But it doesn't mean the way I crave your touch will lessen. When we're alone, I'll probably be doing whatever I can to get yours hands on me, you kissing me, holding me down and showing me exactly how much you want me. I need to feel that, Kento.
But I can control myself in public." To some degree. "I feel your need and it makes me want to respond, to give you everything." His hands come up, frame Nanami's face as he kisses him, lets it linger.
"But even in public, I want to touch you, hold your hand, kiss you whenever I can."
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Date: 2024-02-01 10:09 pm (UTC)Nanami wraps his arms around Haibara and turns so he can lay Haibara flat on his back on the couch with Nanami above him. He kisses Haibara and unbuttons the shirt the rest of the way. His hips pin Haibara's, and Nanami barely holds himself up on his elbows now the shirt's not in his way. "I will show you," he promises, "I will show you ever day how deeply I want you. I'm not used to feeling it this much, to wanting to needing someone this much. It's thrown off my whole routine. Everything I"m used to, and I'm glad," much as he is someone who lives by routine, "I am so glad you're here."
Tears form in his eyes, and Nanami kisses Haibara again, the love he feels and his personal discomfort with showing affection in public warring within him, "You can always hold my hand. Whenever we're out together." He doesn't know about the rest. It makes him flush, even here, to think about it.
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Date: 2024-02-01 10:57 pm (UTC)The problem is he feels it too much, and the feelings shift into arousal and desire, leaving him aching and craving contact. aching to be in Nanami's arms, pinned under him and begging for Nanami to be inside him.
"I love you. I feel the same way and- " he shudders, arches up against Nanami and moans his name, wrapping legs around his waist. " Kento, please"
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Date: 2024-02-02 01:35 am (UTC)He takes Yu's hand and kisses it, a gesture of his love and affection. "I'm here, Yu. I'm here."
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Date: 2024-02-02 01:42 am (UTC)"...Kento." It's a quiet whisper, a moan following as a wave of pleasure rides along their bond, letting Nanami feel how good Haibara feels when they're joined like this.
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Date: 2024-02-02 03:15 am (UTC)"You're with me, Yu," Nanami says, "I have you. I'll always have you."