He wasn't eavesdropping, not really but the fact Nanami left the apartment was enough to have him waiting on the couch for when he returns. He's aware Nanami hasn't told him everything and he hasn't really asked much about the future.
Because it doesn't really change what's happening here and when Nanami's ready to talk he will. But from the sight of the girl, and yes he'd seen her before disappearing into the bedroom, stuff was probably worse than he'd suspected.
There's also tea waiting on the table.
"....Are you okay?" It's quiet, concern in his voice.
Nanami continues walking after he parts ways with Maki. The mood of Epiphany, the heavy blanket of reflection, weighs on him as he walks, as he thinks about how little he did to protect those children, how little they all did. In the end, they have to save everyone, including the adults, rather than the other way around. It's unlikely they'll all make it through. It seems extremely unlikely Okkotsu will survive, and the boy probably assumes that as well. It's not good for them, but their world isn't good for them or kind to them.
He returns home, however, because he knows Yu is waiting and deserves to know some things. Some of it, at least. Things he's kept quiet on a long while. As good a place as Folkmore is for them all, the weight of their world seeps in. Nanami slips off his shoes and takes in both Yu and the tea. He pours them each a cup of tea and brings it over to the couch.
"Mostly," Nanami says. "I cannot help these kids the way I want to, but I already knew that."
"You did the best you could, and you're doing the best you can here. We're not miracle workers." He takes one of the cups and puts it down to let it cool a little.
Nanami continues to hold his tea cupped in one hand. It's warm and grounding, even before he drinks it. Yu's there too, of course.
"We're not, but no one can be there for them as they experience new memories from home. It all happens at once. Whatever happens suddenly has happened," Nanami says. He takes Yu's hand and squeezes it. "I'm no longer there for them back home. I died."
Here is the only place he can help them. He's known that the whole time, but he didn't want to tell Yu.
Nanami sighs. "I should have expected that." As nice as it is that the statement isn't a revelation, a part of him is a little sad that Yu knew he didn't have a future either. He never had a future with Yu, except in the after life, before this. Now they can have a future and live. It's better than what they got back home.
"I should. The kids would stand a better chance of winning with my help," Nanami says. That's what matters most. The future of those kids, of Japan, of the world. Whatever pain and suffering it causes him is worth it.
"Will you tell me what she said?" Because while he knows some of the story, he's never gotten enough of the details, but since they're talking about it anyway.
"What parts do you want to know about?" Nanami asks, "I can review it all, but most of it is hearsay for me. I'd rather focus on the parts you want to know about. They're fighting Sukuna. They've prepared heavily, but Sukuna still has far higher odds of winning."
Gojo is already dead. Gojo lost to Sukuna possessing Megumi Fushiguro. "I know you would. You waited so long for me."
Nanami holds Yu's hand close. "I'm glad it didn't feel that long for you," Nanami says, "It felt an incredibly long time to be without you."
No one ever compared. No one came close. He may have missed out on some things, but he was okay with missing those ones.
"I don't know. Perhaps if I fulfill enough of my potential. It might be a disappointment for me to progress only to return to the after life where it makes little difference."
It's easy to forget that it has been longer for Nanami than Yu. Years and years longer. His entire adult career as a jujutsu sorcerer. He hopes Yu hugged him or cuddled him or whatever brought Yu comfort. Even if Nanami didn't feel it at all, he wants to provide that comfort to him.
"I may be able to negotiate a deal," Nanami agrees thoughtfully, "It would likely be predicated on me growing toward enough of my potential to be worth it to her. Ideally, I'd be sent back uninjured if I'm going to face the spirit that killed me. Whether or not I get to change things, and we kill him, dying immediately would defeat the purpose." He's thinking aloud. It's a new goal, even as it remains focused on helping the students.
"I will have to work on achieving more of my potential," Nanami muses. It hasn't been a priority for him. Helping the kids, living with Yu, those have been his priorities. They still are priorities. He simply has multiple priorities. He won't take any time with Yu for granted, not ever.
"Itadori almost killed him, but Kenjaku absorbed the cursed spirit, which as you may guess is not a good thing." That's why it might change everything if they can kill the patchwork spirit.
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6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-07-31 05:56 pm (UTC)Because it doesn't really change what's happening here and when Nanami's ready to talk he will. But from the sight of the girl, and yes he'd seen her before disappearing into the bedroom, stuff was probably worse than he'd suspected.
There's also tea waiting on the table.
"....Are you okay?" It's quiet, concern in his voice.
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-20 03:24 pm (UTC)He returns home, however, because he knows Yu is waiting and deserves to know some things. Some of it, at least. Things he's kept quiet on a long while. As good a place as Folkmore is for them all, the weight of their world seeps in. Nanami slips off his shoes and takes in both Yu and the tea. He pours them each a cup of tea and brings it over to the couch.
"Mostly," Nanami says. "I cannot help these kids the way I want to, but I already knew that."
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-20 03:32 pm (UTC)Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-20 07:35 pm (UTC)"We're not, but no one can be there for them as they experience new memories from home. It all happens at once. Whatever happens suddenly has happened," Nanami says. He takes Yu's hand and squeezes it. "I'm no longer there for them back home. I died."
Here is the only place he can help them. He's known that the whole time, but he didn't want to tell Yu.
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-20 07:39 pm (UTC)"If you could go back, would you?"
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-20 08:43 pm (UTC)"I should. The kids would stand a better chance of winning with my help," Nanami says. That's what matters most. The future of those kids, of Japan, of the world. Whatever pain and suffering it causes him is worth it.
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-20 08:48 pm (UTC)"If you were given the chance, I'd wait for you."
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-21 02:18 am (UTC)Gojo is already dead. Gojo lost to Sukuna possessing Megumi Fushiguro. "I know you would. You waited so long for me."
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-21 03:54 am (UTC)"...Do you think Thirteen would let you?"
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-21 10:54 pm (UTC)No one ever compared. No one came close. He may have missed out on some things, but he was okay with missing those ones.
"I don't know. Perhaps if I fulfill enough of my potential. It might be a disappointment for me to progress only to return to the after life where it makes little difference."
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-26 12:47 am (UTC)"You could always ask if you want to try to help them there. Maybe negotiate something?"
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-27 07:56 pm (UTC)"I may be able to negotiate a deal," Nanami agrees thoughtfully, "It would likely be predicated on me growing toward enough of my potential to be worth it to her. Ideally, I'd be sent back uninjured if I'm going to face the spirit that killed me. Whether or not I get to change things, and we kill him, dying immediately would defeat the purpose." He's thinking aloud. It's a new goal, even as it remains focused on helping the students.
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-08-28 04:23 am (UTC)"Have you asked what happened to him?"
Re: 6/20 after Nanami's talk with Maki
Date: 2024-09-01 05:19 am (UTC)"Itadori almost killed him, but Kenjaku absorbed the cursed spirit, which as you may guess is not a good thing." That's why it might change everything if they can kill the patchwork spirit.